...I'm enjoying swimming lessons.

 NOT.

Unless i can compete and win on a sport, i am not interested.

But since i can die from drowning if ever the dragonboat sink

Or if there was a big wave and i can't get hold of the surf board,

ORRRR

The boxing gym suddenly had their pipes broken and have the place flooded,

I have to learn how to swim.

I can't stand wearing the bathing suit.

You are the biggest coward i know.

Not only that, avoiding conversation by deleting me on your friendster only proves you're shit.

Ok. I will not be nice to you anymore.

For a person who only wanted resolution to a once existing conflict, i've done my part.

Yes. My last attempt did not include intentions of having you on the same bed as mine.

And take note: if i had known that saying "I love you" to you would turn you to a freak, i should've said FUCK YOU instead.

But hey, it's not too late...

So with my pride aside, this time,

And same goes to the once existing BITTERNESS,

You, kid, are a psycho case.

Unforgiving, EGOISTIC, proud, jerks like you deserve to die alone.

I hope you never pass the bar exam. And i'm serious.

And yeah. FUCK YOU.

Aside from being a paddler this Boracay Race, Mam Grace asked me to be the team's signals man.

Which only means, i'm dying of skin cancer.

++

Vlad is a teamate. He usually sits behind me. We both have side-twist problems...

And he has this tattoo on his leg.

Before we loaded the boat this morning he said "Umiitim ka na...nu ginagawa mo?"

And i was taken aback because he doesn't usually talk.

"Surf."

Yeah...i know i sounded strange...paralytic.

He's so dang gorgeous. 

But during trainings, he sits next to his girlfriend...

So yep, this is where i exit :D

++

And our team will be having a sort-of benefit show soon. This is to support us financially since we will be competing in Taiwan and Malaysia in around June or July.

Yes, the government has no plans on supporting us. But all thanks to the sponsors, at least we have a place to stay. Food too :D

OYAHH will be playing on that event, together with my teamates' reggae stints, and i'll be posting the details as soon as the posters come out.

Glam + Reggae....yeah. it doesn't connect. I know.

++

I read her friendster shout out:

"SUN, SAND, BEACH, AND A SEXY."

Anu daw??? "A" SEXY???

Napailing nalang ako.

Maganda nga pwet mo, boba ka naman. KERI.

Currently feeling: exhausted

So i am currently in a catfight with my ex's wife.

Why? Well because, the insecure girl that she is, she had managed to go through all my existing accounts just to prove that her husband and i are still talking.

WRONG MOVE.

So now, she's been sending me text messages which i will so unselfishly share with you:

all caps, mind you.

"NO ONES KNOWS ME!"

"FUCKING HORE MIND YOUR BUSINESS!"

"NEVER BEEN A BITCH AND A WILD LIKE YOU!"

"WALA AKO PAKIALAM. PAST RELATIONSHIP SAME WITH HIM D DIFFERENCE IS WE GOT MARRIED. I NEVER DO SUCH INDECENT ACT TO HIM, I NEVR MADE HIM STUPID, I DIDN'T TREAT HIM BAD, I DO MY PART, ND YET THIS IS D PRIZE I'VE GOT. I NEVER DEMAND FOR ANYTHING JUST FOR BEING TRUE AND HONEST. HE ENTERS MY LIFE DAT IM SATISFY ON BEING ALONE AND ENJOYING THE LIFE DAT I HAVE. SO DOESN'T HAVE D RIGHT TO FUCK UP MY LIFE."

"I DON'T DO CAT FIGHTS. SORI AH. DI AKO PA GIRLY TYPE"

"NEVER BE PRETENDFUL IN MY LIFE"

"THANKS FOR D CORRECTION...LUFET LOOSING MY VOCABULARY NA S INIT NG ULO."

"HOY DI AKO BOBO. MAY KLASE NG MGA SMARTS!"

at dahil wala na xa masabi sakin dahil kinocorrect ko na lahat ng text messages niya,

"ASQUEROSO!"

~and she wanted me to get back with my ex. Hahahaha. sorry di ako namumulot ng galing sa tanga.

There you go.

Well girl, you had managed to prove to me how stupid you are. And if people would say i'm more pathetic than you because i chose to reply, well, say what you want.

I ENJOY GRAMMATICAL ERRORS BIG TIME.

Currently feeling: amused

When i was young, i thought Axl Rose was a girl. Imagine the first time i saw November Rain. I thought it was a lesbian epiphany of some sort.

Ha! But then again there's 4-Non BLondes' What's Up which turned my curiosity up a notch. But yeah, she really is a she...

This must be the reason why i love GLAM sooo much. Cross-dressing freaks appeal to me.

++

The song up there, i love it. Well, even if Axl is a twisted egoistic crap, he made some good songs. And Izzy Stradlin, i think, gave him a hand on this one.

I put in there some happy pics just to compensate the drama. ECK. Too much melancholy kills.

Currently feeling: warm

So far, i've crossed out 6 destinations from my list. But i'll be going back to Morong Rizal to take some pictures. Apparently, i was too busy having fun with my kamag-anaks  that i forgot KODAK moments.

Anyway, I just came home from Puerto Galera and YES I'M BROKE.

Blame the island hopping, blame pointless shopping, blame MINDORO SLING! But i guess everything was worth up to the last centavo.

We had fun. Sure, Galera is no longer a place for relaxation...but thank god, there's a tamer Sodom and Gomorrah still existing.

I'm 3 shades darker now and i have the worst cold from drunk night swimming.

And John Pratts is a piece of horse dung. Or was it just someone who looks like him? Whatever.

Checklist:

*Puerto Galera
*La Union
*Laiya Batangas
*Vigan/Pagudpod
*Pangasinan
*Bohol
*Boracay
*Tarlac
*Morong /Baras Rizal/Antipolo
*PALAWAN!!!

 

http://janni4president.multiply.com/journal/item/16/OPEN_LETTER_LA_UNION_TRIP

yan ang patunay na may mga taong tanga.

well, kasama nako dun...but that's not the point. =)

ENJOY!!! 

 

 

Currently listening to: garbage's stupid girl

Today was really uneventful.

I uploaded all Puerto Galera pix on photobucket

And checked my mail

100+ times.

I watched and REwatched my dvds,

Realized that Death Note was far better

As an anime series,

And tried to ignore the effects

Of the pill that i was taking.

Today,

From being extremely avengeful,

I became sugar-optimistic.

Also, El Nino is out to get the last

Moisture off my tonsils. 

Was it just the heat...

It could still be the pill...

Either ways,

I think i'm gonna be brain dead

Sooner than i expected.

All hail heatwave! 

And the possibility that i'm going to be

Broke for the next 2 years.

Yes.

I'm 6 times darker than what i used to be.

And i am currently aiming for the point-10

Level of comparison.

Anytime now...

If it's not the boxing gym,

I'm at Manila Bay training my ass off.

Speaking of which,

I'm on a weight-loss program

Because they had to qualify me on a certain

Weight division where i am assured

a 100% chance of winning.

THINGS I DO TO FORGET.

You got that right. I have to forget.

Even if it meant torturing myself.

Don't ask me.

++

Magtatagalog na ako sa parteng ito. Mukhang natanggalan na din kasi ako ng karapatan mag inggles. Sa itim kong 'to wala ng maniniwala na taga Manila ako. Haha. Kinakausap na din ako ng mga katutubo sa mga lugar na pinupuntahan ko gamit dialect nila.

BOW.

Madali na din tumawad sa palengke. =D

Nakilala ko pala siya nung papunta akong Corregidor. Pamilyar mukha niya at kailangan niya yung kapatid niya (correction: half-brother) para i-translate yung sinasabi niya sa Tagalog/English. Yep. Mahirap siya kausap.

Lahat na lang nang naliligaw sa buhay ko mahirap kausap.

Ok. Tatanggi ako. Di ako natutuwa.

WAIT. NATUTUWA PALA AKO.

Mag tatalong buwan na nakalipas at sa ingay kong 'to

Maniwala man kayo o hindi,Ngayun ko lang 'to malawakang makukwento.

Sus. Gusto ko siya.

Pero ayoko.

Dalang dala nako sa lalaki (at babae)Kung yung mga pangit nga nasasaktan ako,

Yung may ichura pa kaya?

Umuwi na din naman siya sa kanila e.Tapos pumutok yung balita. Actually, pinilit ko hanapin yung pardibleng magpapasabog ng lahat. So yung mga biro pala ng kuya niya, TOTOO.

Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala. Nakakamanhid lang ng kalahati ng katawan (left side..haha).

Tapos natanggap ko pa email niya nung isang linggo. Sa kanya na lang daw ako (sa lenggwahe niya).

Tae ka. Ano ako laruan???

Pero sige.

You got yourself a deal.

Hintayin mo lang ako sumpungin ulit ng kabaliwan,

Tatanggapin ko alok mo.

Currently feeling: disbelief

Allow me

To remain in this state forever.

Or i might do something

I'll regret

Later.

++

Let's just keep this certain distance between us. It's not that i don't like you, it's because i'm having trouble believing in all this.

Just got home from my usual tuesday drinking session...It's funny though...I drank most of the bottles empty and yet i'm still sane.

We have pictures together, his brother and me. And yet, though we knew each other, we acted as if we didn't. No reason behind that, well except that i didn't want his officemates to think that we have "something"...he's married too.

Everyone's married. Fuck that. It's like everybody needs a reason to chain themselves eternal.

Yes, i lost fate in marriage. Someone used it to get even with me. After everything that had happened, i don't think i'll be married soon.

And if i will get married, i'll make sure that i have no other reasons except that i wanted to grow old loving that person.

Cheesy? Feast on it.

Speaking of his brother, we chatted earlier today...he said T_ _ _ may be acting on impulse again especially now that there's a rumor going on that he's gay. Although he doubted the thought that he just needs me to prove everybody wrong, the possibilities are still endless so i should think about it.

YES. I WILL THINK ABOUT IT.

For once, i'll start thinking about things. I refuse to be hurt again.

If 4 years turned out as crap, what more could 3 mos without committment be?

This time, i will just have to say no. Even if it meant a free pass to some country i've been dying to go to.

Yes. Yes. Yes. With him offering to pay for my plane tickets, i must be a real moron to resist.

AMEN. I am a moron.

Sorry. I know i'm not making any sense. I'm in a state of major conflict.

Blame Alcohol and Nicotine.

Forgive me. 

Currently feeling: crappy

Right now, i feel like there's so much to do and yet i can't do any.

This is just so typical of me...and i'm driving myself nuts.

I MISS DAYS WHEN I'M PERFECTLY SANE.

++

Last night, some guy tried to hit on me. He asked for my number and i bluntly replied, "12." He asked me if i was kidding, and i said no.

He still insisted on getting my number so i gave him a mobile number that isn't working. The guy went back to his sit and i can see him trying to call the number i gave. Upon realizing that that number was turned off, he went back to my sit and asked if that was my real number.

I said yes, and it's on call barring that's why he couldn't connect.

He went back to his seat and my friends and i continued drinking.

Then there were bottles breaking from their table. I was intoxicated enough to even pay attention. It was just this afternoon that one of my friends told me that the guy who asked for my number caused a scene and a bouncer had to drag him and some of his friends out.

Good thing i didn't give my number. Sana sa Bangbang Ali nalang sila nag-inom. Kupal.

++ 

Bumped into Gaspar yesterday while on my way to the drinking session. I missed the guy. He was wearing his corporate clothes and it was funny looking at him.

The emokid is now an emo-man.

Call me silver-surfer all you want given that i'll call you MINI EMO-MAN from now on.

++

Somebody give me a gun.

Ok. Joke lang.

NAPAKA-INIT!!!

*#&!#&$!$!#*%&!#%!#%(!

Hindi naman ako pwedeng hindi lumabas dahil may mga obligasyon ako!

Bakit ganito ka init?!!!

BARILIN NIYO NA LANG AKO PLEASE.

Hindi yung dinadahan dahan niyo ako.

One time big time na lang o.

Sige na.

Tae. Nabbwisit nako sa init.

Currently feeling: hothothot

Been running from this feeling for so long Telling my heart I didn't need it Pretending I was better off alone But I know that it's just a lie So afraid to take a chance again So afraid of what I feel inside But I need to be next to you I need to share every breath of you I need to know I can see you smile each morning Look into your eyes each night for the rest of my life Here with you, near with you I need to be next to you Need to be next to you Right here with you is right where I belong I lose my mind if I can't see you Without you there's nothing in this life That would make life worth living for I can't make it if you're not there I can't fight what I feel any more Cause I need to be next to you I need to share every breath of you I need to know I can see you smile this morning Look into your eyes each night for the rest of my life Here with you, near with you I need to be next to you I need to have your arms next to mine for all the time Holding for all my life I need to be next to you ++ For some insane reason, i'm falling for the other. But since i promised NEVER to complicate my life anymore, i'll just shut up. We can still talk about the usual things...Laugh at ourselves for being drunkards... We can still be that. And i'll just play along until everything's back to normal. Until then, i'll be the biggest liar.

Currently listening to: ^^^
Currently feeling: inlababo

I've been self-destructing because of you.

Apparently, I needed to get rid of that feeling

Even if it meant never going online again

To check if you

Or your brother

Emailed me.

I'd come up with some lame excuse

Not to drink every Tuesday night:

I'd say i have Liver problems

Because i started using steroids

OR i'd say my religion

Suddenly decided to burn drunkards alive.

You see,

This had become an obsession.

It's another itch i had been wanting

To scratch.

And i'm doomed for all eternity of disdain

Unless i cut all my fingers

To prevent myself from that lust.

You cannot be that nice.

Just prove me that.

Leave her and be with me,

Then i'll be satisfied enough to

Walk away.

Jerk.

Currently feeling: lovesick

Someone made sure that i pay for

The 4 sticks of lights i had this week.

Today, the training program was the dreaded

PYRAMID.

A hundred and twenty strokes each on both sets.

To think that we were training under the 10:00 a.m. sun.

AND IF THAT WASN'T ENOUGH,

We had to rehearse for the Earth Day Celebration regatta.

3 pairs of paddlers. 1 Champion Boat.

Lungs Collapsing.

Suicide.

++

There must be a very good reason

Why i had it as my wallpaper.

And when they asked,

I just told them

You're his brother.

And there i was thinking such things only happen on tv. LOL. Yep, I had Heat Fatigue.

Which explained why yesterday, my skin was the same color as a gatoraide cap...and probably why i could hear the pulsing on my temples. 

Believe it or not, i was even having problems composing a simple sentence in english.

The doctor said it was a good thing i consulted immediately or it might have lead to heat stroke.

With 115 pulse beats per minute...

And 120/90 blood pressure when it was 90/60 normally...

I wonder why he didn't ask if i was on Meth...

HMM....Interesting.

++

My ability to attract tragedy is amazing...

Just so you know,

I'm keeping my word.

Well, not that what we have is something

I should watch out for...

I mean, you're still that way

And i doubt it if you'll let me sleep on the bed this time

If I get too drunk to go home.

Apparently, i had made your floor

My sanctuary

And i'm pretty sure your brother

Will think that that is so "kawaii..." 

Endearing...

Not really. More like,

Tormenting.

 

Currently listening to: Frente's Bizarre Love Triangle
Currently feeling: drained

FINALLY!

We're done with the Earthday Celebration! And i will be absent from training tomorrow...i refuse to die of heat stroke...

Tama na yung heat fatigue...masyado ng House-ish ang mga pangyayare.

Bleah.

++

Checked my mail last night...

He asked me what it would be like to have a new cellphone...*Strange*

But it all made sense by the latter part of the mail: "Meet me tomorrow at Gateway around 5pm before my shift. Clear?"

So there i was, 5:15 pm @ Starbucks Gateway. I have this reputation of being late, btw. He looked pissed that it was funny...and something else ^_^

He handed me a black box. And i was taken aback. It was a Nokia N70!

He said his brother wanted me to have it since that was his phone while he was visiting here in the Philippines.

No. I didn't grab it immediately. Actually, out of hypocrisy of some sort, i asked what's this for...

And he bluntly replied that he didn't know. But he's positive his brother just wanted me to have it for the meantime.

Ok. Point taken.

So i have a new mobile phone now. He could have just given me his vodaphone para cute...but who am i to complain...right?

He asked if i was dropping by the bar where he's working...i said no.

He said i looked thinner and really tan, what happened? ...i said i got sick. Heat fatigue.

He laughed at that thought. He commented how his brother would love to see me looking like this.

His brother emailed him about me...asking why i wasn't replying lately...Same reason, i answered...I.GOT.SICK.

When really...it was something else.

We soon said goodbye, he has to go to work...

And i wished it didn't happen but it did:

Him: "Miss na kita, hoy. Magaling ka mag disappearing act eh. Akina na nga number mo. Bayad yan."

Ako: "12. Number ko." (har)

Him: "Sige ako 18. Ulul. Bye Sexy." *Slaps my forehead and gave me a bear hug*

Ok. So this is the part where i pass out and went straight to heaven.

But no, i didn't. I just gave him a playful punch on the side and said goodbye.

I'm sooo into deep. Kill me now.

 

 

 

Currently listening to: Keane's A Bad Dream
Currently feeling: kilig

Emailing me that you're going back here in Manila is not a good joke to start with...

You see, i'm perfectly fine. Nothing's wrong...i just needed some time to think since everything is going really fast for the both of us.

I needed a breather.

I needed some time to identify what's up between your brother and me.

...or just solely me.

Yes, i admit to being the bad person here...AGAIN.

 

Currently feeling: pressured

Great.

My credit card isn't working! I needed to book my flight asap since i just got word that the June 10 flight was declared fully-booked yesterday.

I have no choice but to go home 1 day earlier than my teamates. Well, it's a good thing that i'm not going home alone on June 9...5 of us are. But still, i'm going to miss a day that was intended for shopping, temple-hopping, and drinking. GRRR.

But, yeah, Taiwan isn't really that big of a deal...i mean, what's there to see...i was there last year...i guess that would be enough.

Sigh...If only i can convince myself to believe that. =(

++

I called my coach earlier today...i cancelled my entry for the boxing match on May 9. Somehow, i felt relieved. That's one down on my list of current life pressures.

Though i would have wanted that match big time....but i guess this isn't just the right moment for that.

++

Today, i've decided to reply to his emails. I've explained why i wasn't able to send them earlier...

Come to think of it, i miss him. Maybe i was just looking for something that would fill the void he left when he went home.

I mean, we're not in a formal relationship...he's not obliged to email me everyday or call me long distance...

We're not even so intimate as to share personal stories...

Actually, we've been really casual. With the language barrier, it's not even that comfortable to talk to him personally. It might be just an illusion.

I might have fooled myself into believing that such thing works. SIIIGGGGHHH...

To even think that when he was still here in Manila, we needed his brother to translate things...not that he doesn't try but...yeah...

Cath was right...He might just be my current obsession.

...But i miss him...

...yeah...i do...and i'm not just rationalizing everything.

He makes me laugh...He makes me feel really REALLY good about myself...

So far, he's been consistent.

Yep. It probably is just me. I do have this knack on complicating things.

Sometimes, i think it would be just nice to not over-analyze things and be just a NORMAL girl.

So from today on, i promise not to entertain romantic thoughts about his brother anymore.

jann bakkero.

 

 

 

 

Wala akong matinong maisusulat ngayon maliban na lang sa PUTANGINANG WASAK AKO.

Akala ko pa naman makakaligtas na ako ngayon sa training dahil alam nilang galing ako sa sakit...pero hindeee....

Wala silang habag.

Nung una pa, gusto nila ako ilagay sa harap. Ako daw ang mag seset ng Pace. Sige. Nanalangin na ako. Ayoko naman mamatay habang sumasagwan. Pangit tingnan diba.

Buti na lang, hindi bumalanse yung bangka. Para nila akong hinarana:

"Jann, lipat ka muna sa isang bangka. Rest ka muna ng isang heat."

Natuwa ako. Pramis. Parang gusto ko yakapin kapitan ko.

O xa, edi rest habang pinapanuod ko sila magpakamatay.

Pagbalik, pinalipat na ulit nila ako. Akala ko pauwi na.

Hindi pala. Simula pa lang pala ng pahirap.

Nag-mock-race. Kalaban namin ang mga gwapo at mababangong DRAGO PILIPINAS (pramis mga tol. pagkatabi ko kayo gusto ko na mag-asawa...)

Third man ako. Sige lang. Kakayanin ko. Nagsimula ang heat. Akala ko 300 meters lang. Puta.

500 meters pala.

Dikit lang kami halos ng bangka ng mga Drago. Maganda laban. Kaso...

"Ok men! We can do this! We can beat them! Endure the pain men!!!! ENDURRRREEEEE!!!"

Nagulantang ako. Nag eenglish sila habang kumakarera sa Manila Bay.

Whoa.

Sige na. Insecure na.

Kaso naman, sa basagan ng ulirat, nakuha pa nilang mag-english. Tapos buti kong sa Lakeshore Pampanga sila kumakarera...nasa Manila Bay sila eh...

Pero ano ba naman paki alam ko? E sa mayaman sila, maputi, mabango, guuwaaapo...

Kami: maitim. mahirap. balahura. maingay. epal. madumi. madungis.

Wala kami laban. Maliban na lang sa mas malakas kami :D

Wooo. Anyabang ko. Ok lang...At least may pambawi ako sa naramdaman kong hirap kanina.

Literal na nanginig baga ko. Ang init ng mukha ko. Ansakit pa ng likod ko.

Mula ngayon isinusumpa ko na ang alak at yosi at lahat ng pwede isumpa kasama neto.

Hay. Sana naman manalo kami sa Boracay neto. Anlungkot kung hindi kami mananalo. Sayang binayad ko sa pamasahe. Sayang  lahat ng sakripisyo. Sayang ang heat fatigue.

Basta ayun. Masama na lagay ko kaso kailangan ko gawin mga tungkulin ko ngayung araw na to.

Kaya bahala na ulit si batman.

Currently feeling: wasakbasag

It's been a long time since i last cosplayed...and i missed it.

Just a few moments ago i received a text message from a friend. Apparently, TokyoTokyo is sponsoring a cosplay event today and she wanted to attend with me.

As mush as i wanted to, spontaneous cosplaying is not my thing...besides, i have yet to dig up my costume from a pile of junk that's in my closet.

ARGH!!! If only she had told me earlier!

Speaking of which, lately i've been thinking of a good character to cosplay...

I ended up with 2 choices: Vincent Valentine and Reno of the Turks (both from Final Fantasy VII)...

Yeah...both are men. hehe. =D

I really miss cosplaying.............................................................

*Some guy cosplaying as Reno

*Vincent Valentine

++

Had this small chat with a fellow paddler yesterday. He was really "mahangin" and it pissed me big time.

San Beda Rowers (my teamates before) merged with their team (U.P.) since only 3 showed up. This guy volunteered to pace according to Mar (Beda team captain and my band's lead guitarist) and during the whole training he was really REALLY loud.

"Kaya pa yan partner! Wag ka manghihina!"

...and Mar was pissed too since this guy was the one doing things all wrong. A pacer should set the rhythm of paddling and carry a big percentage of the boat's weight. According to him, the guy was just doing all the "porma" and no load. Apparently, Mar was left with the burden of pacing all by himself.

The nerve of that guy to shout "Wag kang manghihina..."

Anyway, during our small chitchat, he commented how my present team seemed to be the melting pot of all Philippine Teams. According to him, yeah, we're good, but we don't have what he coined out as "grass roots."

And i was like "that isn't really important. we were scouted by the team manager since he saw something good in us."

He just smirked and said how come he wasn't invited to try-out and why was i invited since he's stronger than me.

*just for the record, i'm not a patient person and i don't go by forgiving. yes...this is my worst trait.*

So i bluntly said that he's not stronger than me and i'd take him on anytime, anywhere and not because he's from U.P. he can start proclaiming himself as better than anybody else. (no offense if there's someone from u.p. reading this)

This was what he said:

"Shempre naman! Kaya nga ako magaling dahil galing akong U.P.!!! Matalino pa ako! *pekpek laugh* Ikaw ba masasabi mong matalino ka AT malakas?! Hinde diba? *pekpek laugh ulit*"

Diba kupal.

Good thing Mar approached us and started coaching him on the proper form of rowing. Mar told me to cool it and he'll take over.

GRRR.

Ayan siya. Putangina mo. Kala mo gwapo ka. Kamukha mo si Jimmy Bondoc na nasagasaan ng pison. Putangina mo ng madaming beses. Supot.

Currently watching: Tada Kimi wo Aishiteru
Currently feeling: pissed

Yep...I'll be representing the U.S. - Philippine Merger Team on the Boracay Race.

Somehow, i felt a little disappointed when i saw the jersey. They just have to put the American flag on it. *Sigh*

I mean, there's nothing really wrong having the flag up there but being a Filipino Athlete, it kinda hurts my pride.

Anyway, 2 days left for me to pack my things and buy all other stuff that i might be needing. I won't be bringing much since Boracay is still Boracay and i think i've been there too many times to go panic-packing.

=(

Rumor has it that there's going to be a Camarines Sur Regatta...If there is some truth to this, I better start looking for a part time job. This is something that i wouldn't miss...

Wakeboarding...Surfing....harrrr.....

 

++

When you told me that they were all lies,

I stopped believing in anything that you've said

And will say.

But when i heard the reason,

I somehow felt that

You've justified yourself

Quite well.

And yet, i still feel guilty over the situation.

 

Hindi na muna ako magpapaalam sayo...

Wala namang dahilan para gawin ko yun.

Hindi ka naman sa akin

At ayoko na muna maging pagmamay-ari ng

Kahit na sino.

Masaya na ako sa ganito:

Yung hindi ko alam kung ano meron tayo

At ano meron kami.

Laging exciting.

Laging nangangapa.

Parang high-school.

Kung may masasaktan,

May magrereklamo.

Yun ang kinaganda nun.

Dahil hindi na tayo ganun kabata.

Pagkatapos naten umiyak,

Iinom na tayo...

Ayos.

At least, nagkadahilan.

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Ro-Ro Agenda para bukas:

Ang unang himatayin sa pagod, BAKLA.

Currently listening to: The Fray's How To Save A Life
Currently watching: Suicide Club
Currently feeling: giddy